I Heal

July 4, 2016

 

It’s been thirteen years,

It was a year that

I realized my fears

A year that I thought

I may drown in my own tears

The memory of it

Remains seared

On my heart

burned so deep

I’m charred

Branded

I felt abandoned

And Scarred

As the pain slowly erases

I analyze your many faces

For warning signs

Any remaining traces

Of doubt

I heal

I thought we were unstoppable

Record breakable

The kind of love that people talked about

The kind that would weather time

A rhyme of sweet perfection

We were them,

The couple that everyone wanted to be

Until we weren’t

Until you decided

To stop my breath

Until you left my heart in a perpetual state of arrhythmia

My beat was lost with out your own

Life support

Full blown

I heal

Everything happens for a reason

Everything in its season

But it felt like treason

I heal

I was filled with so much hope

And then I was strangled

And it was you that held the rope

The days that are filled with anger

I look at you like a stranger

That I don’t know

Like a person on death row

With no where left to go

So this is not a sweet anniversary poem

But it’s real

As I heal

The time apart we did defeat

The fears I will make retreat

I surrender

I try not to remember

But I am seared

Our love no longer to be revered

But it’s real

My heart now plated with steel

I heal

Copy Right Jennifer David 2016

Well it’s certainly been a long while since I’ve posted on my blog.  It was a rough year in the love department so much of my inspiration was lost….This poem may be rusty in flow but I’m sure it will return a little more smoothly with time!  I hope you all are well!  Jennifer

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Written by Jennifer Writings of a (n Ex) Mrs Posted in Blogging, contemporary poetry, Freeverse poetry, Inspiration, Poetry, Uncategorized Tagged with Blogging, family, inspiration, life, love, poem, poet, poetry, thought, Writing