Deep Rooted Yearning


Deep Rooted Yearning


Tossing, turning,
stomach churning,

Heartburn, burning

Deep rooted yearning

For me to arrive


You wake


Rub your belly


Swollen with new life

With me


We are connected,

Through life giving ties


That led to my demise

The gift of life



You will never look into my eyes


Tossing, turning,
stomach churning,

Heartburn, burning

Deep rooted yearning

Longing for me to arrive




Please show support and understanding to the many women who lose a child during pregnancy or childbirth.  They will never have the opportunity to look into their child’s eyes.


Please watch this educating video.
In the first segment, my cousin through marriage, Carol McMurrich speaks about Empty Arms Bereavement Support that she founded, and the need for support of miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss. If only such support was available everywhere.




  1. Carol McMurrich,

    Thanks so much for sharing, Jen…. I really appreciate it. Thank you for your writing. It is beautiful. Love,Carol

  2. billieazahir

    It has been 16 years since I lost my child with a miscarriage. I always think of the child that never came as a he…and his name is Zach. I had to give the baby I never got to hold a gender and name because I was hurt when I was told at least you lost him soon so you don’t have deal with his loss after you got too attached. They never understood how my attachment was complete when the Doctor said I was around 6 weeks.Thanks for sharing this.

  3. H. Ken Abell

    Hi Jennifer,
    I really liked the phrasing and rhyming of this poem. Functionally, you may try re-working it as a sort of palindrome, where the beginning and end are the same and each work their way to the middle. I thought maybe the line “You will never look into my eyes” might make a good center point. It could make a poem that is already powerful because of its content even more so by balancing form and content. Further, that center point could be symbolically umbilical. Of course, if this is unwelcome editorializing, please tell me where to go and how to get there. I just wanted to let you know that I enjoyed this poem, and see great promise in it.

    • Jennifer writingsofamrs

      Hi there.
      I appreciate the critique. If I compile my poetry for submissions I will certainly take a better look at their structure. For now I just write from the heart, however it comes out.
      (Did you read my ‘3 things that Poetry is not article’?)
      I’m glad that you enjoyed the poem.

  4. elainedanforth

    I appreciate your excellent expression of the feeling experience around this. From the other comments,and your replies, it sounds like you know what you are writing about. For that, I am sorry. All the best to you.

  5. infantangel

    This is beautiful. I am a one of the many faces of infant loss. Lost our daughter 8.5 months ago at 24 weeks gestation. Thank you for writing this. I love it.

  6. Christina

    One of my best friends lost her sweet little baby to SIDS. Today would have been her first birthday. What a perfect post. I will be sure to share this with her. Lots of love.


  7. Geo Sans

    thanks for your poem

    sharing your information


    my wife and I



    and said good-bye

    to our stillborn son

    almost 7 years ago


    the healing

    is a long, hard process

    that teaches

    the boundaries


    of true love

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